Pink Clouds are just the beginning!
I remember those first days of abstinence! I was bubbling with excitement, it seemed like everyday I had new awarenesses and ah-ha moments. I was working the steps and living on my pink cloud.
Then one day, a storm cloud came in, started raining in my world. Fear, loneliness, grief, stress; try as I might, life got the best of me and I lost a grip on that pink cloud. Thankfully, I had been directed to use my recovery tools daily. Soon, I was merely hanging on to yesterday’s recovery with the help of my safety harness, looking for a way to get back on the cloud again.
But have you ever watched the sunset, when the sky is a myriad of colors? Each day there is a brand new sunrise and sunset, with their own multi colored clouds.
Yesterdays clouds are gone. No matter how hard I try, i’ll never find THAT pink cloud again. And it seems to me that if I am striving to get back on yesterdays clouds, I am missing the beautiful hues of today.
Our lives are a collage of every sunrise and sunset that we have seen. Each day something new, painted specifically by our HP! We are blessed to have a fresh day to carry on – to try our best to do our HP’s will for us this day. To create a new experience in my recovery, I must focus on today!
As 2020, comes to an end, and new adventures will begin, I can accept that if my focus is in the here and now, doing the next right thing, my recovery will be new and ever growing. It can be just as fresh as those first days. For we each are given just one day at a time!
Beth M.
